in between

these headphones the

guitars swirl the voice

cries i want to know

what it's like so i can

feel it

inside

these images

on pages these

words swirl

inside

me

surrounded by silence

outside 

amongst these shadows

in between

these headphones 

a million miles away

from you i 

soar

tiptoeing in

to this oppressive 

darkness that can

only be partly shared

the darkness i must

bare, now,

for as long as he

lives

tears silently

collecting them before

the fall 

the echoes of his

screams still haunt

this silence

ear plugs

headphones

to create some

desperate

bubble

even then

there is no plug

for the guilt

the regret the

contempt for

this colossal mistake

from which there

is

no

escape. 

and then an image of

You

my Love

flashes

and i can no longer catch

tears

they splinter

when you need me

not to,

i am shattering